So, I cheated yesterday, and sort of today.
Yesterday, you are all aware of my scone cheat.
Then, I decided to continue with the illegal eating spree! I had two pieces of cheeseless pizza at work (it was Pizza Day!). I had the best intentions of getting back on board and eating a healthy dinner. My emotions got the best of me and that turned into dinner from Taco Bell, followed by homemade ice cream sundaes with pound cake, bananas, fudge sauce, peanuts and whipped cream.
This morning I was semi-determined to get back on board. So, I had my iced coffee this morning. Then, I got into a fight with Josh. And I got an iced grande non-fat caramel macchiato. And then I decided to get back to it. I made the mock french toast for breakfast. I slightly burned the apples, and then overcooked the rest, so it was less than satisfying as food. Afterwards, I was still kind of hungry.
I ran errands with my mom, we talked about the plan, she complimented me on how good I looked, and we got home at around 3ish. I proceeded to break into a bag of cheetos and cheese popcorn. And ate 3 squares of Ghiradelli chocolate.
I don't know what my problem is! I really want to do this plan - I really want to lose the weight because I know I have a LONG way to go.
But, I am losing motivation to stay on track and reach my goals. :( I am not motivated to eat foods on plan because they are not emotionally satisfying. They are blech. I am not motivated to do anything.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!!!!! I need to get off this cheating spree and get back on plan!!!!
Ok, tomorrow - I will do it all tomorrow! Tomorrow I will have scrambled eggs with veggies, and yogurt with fruit for breakfast. Lunch will be faux tacos in lettuce wraps. And dinner will be oven baked chicken kabobs! Snack will be a kefir smoothie, and/or a blended vanilla coffee drink with almond milk.
I'm feeling my meal planning mojo return!!! I CAN DO THIS!!! I think I'm going to run to the grocery store in a bit. YAY MEAL PLANNING!